Breastfeed

Dear Cow,
I understand your feeling very well now! Being squeezed and pulled! Luckily as human, we only get sucked and bite sometimes ( No worries again, baby without any teeth or tooth won't cause much pain)
15th of March,
Being push out from the labor room, once again i have to said i felt proud and happy! I have conquered the pain and maybe next time i will be giving birth naturally again if i'm planning to have another baby! Back to the subject, pushed back to my room, the baby is not there yet. She is taking her first bath. There, i was too excited and called my mum a thousand time she never picked up the phone! Finally she called back and the first thing she told me was she can only MSN me later! Clearly, she never saw the SMS i sent her during midnight and morning. I told her i just gave birth. Her first reaction " Are you kidding?!"  Second reaction " Dont lie to me!"
After she reagain her clear mind, i told her again i just gave birth! She asked me"How come you sounded so energetic?" My answer: I just came back from a battle with my victory mood! That's why im so awake and excited! Then we talk a bit and hang up coz the baby is here!
The nurse told me that i can started my breastfeed  so that there is a bonding between the baby and me! Yes at fisrt i was so excited to try out! Guess what!? Whenever i try to feed her, she will only suck for a while! First attempt is always the hardest! Because you need to find the right position on the right time. The struggling was all sweat and blood to get it right!
There came the second problem, my milk flow hasn't arrived!! I tried hot towel under the armpit! Tried pumping them and the result was so bad! Only a few drops came out! So i started to worried! But not to worry, cause the flow eventually came in the forth day! As for the rest of the days, don't let your milk wet your bed! Now im happily lactating my baby! Enjoy yours too!

Pain

When the clock strike 00:00am, 15th of March is the day when the most painful moment i have ever encountered! First water broke i thought how come i wee wee on my own pants and the wee wet the whole pants! Okay just a wee i told myself. Changed the pants and went back to sleep on the floor with the yoga mat because i thought it might come again ( felt there were an urge of urine coming out ). I was right again pants went wet. This time i knew it wasn't wee wee. It was the water that broke and my temporary tenant decided to move out from the comfort zone! The flood came so i was forced to check in to the hospital!
Now, the nurse checked my blood pleasure and search for the heart beat of who is going to come out after nine months of sucking all the energy, minerals, vitamin, you name it, it's all in her now! Yes the heart beat! That was the first time i heard her heart beating like 100 plus time per min! Isn't it strange! Nine months of a living thing staying in your tummy!
That time, this was in my mind! Dear tenant please dont take your own sweet time to come out!
1:00am, still no contraction but the lliquid is still leaking and with some blood! Nurse said :" Excuse me and sorry" because she needs to lay her hand on the most private part of me and dig into it to check the tearing!
No worries no pain! Just a lil discomfort! Okay only 1cm! Huh??!! So exactly how many CM to go before i can go into labor stage? The answer.... another 9cm and you are a free woman! *fainted*
Two hours later, the contraction  said hi to me! The pain wasn't that much! It's like mild menstrual pain. The nurse said six hours later if the contraction never get worse she has to inject something to force the tenant to move out! How funny!
4:00am, the contraction went from bad to worse! Yucks it's not just a menstrual  pain anymore! The pain is not in any description list! Excruciating? No! More than that! I almost torn my husband's hand into two!
6:00 am the pain went from sweet to sour and now to smelly! Worst ever in my life! This kind of torturing pain took the two hours life from me!
8:00am at last the urge of pushing with the pain! My husband said he was there like watching me getting kill and tortured! Yes! I shouted but never cursed but almost there! I wanted to cry, guess i'm too busy to even shed a tears or should i said the energy has been shifted to the waist and below!
Yes by 8 something, the tenant named Mikaela is out to say "Hello World" with her thunderous cry! Phew! I felt a relief  and happy! Finally everything is out!
I am a stupid girl! Before everything above, i always think that stitching pain is the scariest part! But not that!
The moment i was pushed out from the labor room, i felt so proud of myself and happy!!
And now im a mother to my one month old Mikaela!!!
Meow Meow!!

Gendong!

Sweet dreams are made of these!

Tadah!

After 17 days  since Mikaela is out from me!! And yes! The wish is being granted! She is out on the 15th of March!

I just love the way she smile!!!

Wating for you!

15th-March-2011

So the soon-to-be grandma likes to check on the chinese calendar to see which is the auspicious day, so that i can move out from my planet. Because she don't want me to be stuck in the situation like, the wrong place the right time, or the right place the wrong time. She think the right place and the right time is the most perfect timing. That's what my landlady think so too! Too bad they are not the decision maker for this time! Neither am i. Well, fingerss cross, grandma checked 15th-Mrach-2011 is the best time to move out. So we shall see!!!
And soon-to-be grandpa seems very excited too! He called, talk to the landlady about me. I can hear it from my room!! The lullaby ringtone which the landlady is using now soothes my mood. I can't wait to see the real world, the oxygen world, where i can breath on my own, i can eat on my own ( not through the connected pipe like now), i can see all the colors with my eyes, i can cry out like where everybody can hear me ( not like now! Nobody can hear me cry. The most is where the landlady can feel my hiccups).
Oh world! Prepare to welcome me! The new tenant without a proper name! Sing to me and let me smile!!

2011

Mummy said i can has all these. And now they are my lil' friends! I cant wait to lay my tiny hands on them. Too bad im still stuck inside the liquid planet! What i do everyday is to kick, punch, twist, somersault, swim, hiccup, dig and kick again to make sure that bag of water can break me free! :) When im busy doing those stunts, i wonder what is the outside world like?
I'm eager to meet the landlady who allowed me to be her tenant for the past 9 months. I know im not an easy one. When im off the rental timeline, im going to come out with a big smile with a healthy body to repay her kindness. I'm now a pending stranger without a name! So for the time being im a lil stranger living in her liquid planet!
Oh landlady be patient, im moving out soon!